A New Beginning

Well, much has occured since the last time I posted. Back then, I was still nervous over how I did for my Os, thinking of all ways to calm myself down that things won’t turn out as bad as what I’ve imagined them to be, and true enough, I have to say that I am satisfied with what I’ve gotten. It may not be awesome, but for someone like me, who hasn’t really put in my 100% into preparing for the examination, I have to thank God for the miracle already. I have no idea why I always refuse to put in my 100% in my work. It has always been the case every single time. I always felt that I could’ve done much better if I were willing to put in more effort into what I was doing, there was never a time whereby I could tell myself that I’ve put in my best and would have no regrets no matter the outcome as I’ve already gave it my best shot. Well, I think I should add this onto my New Year resolution: To give in my very best and be able to give myself a pat on the back regardless of the outcome.

I consider my life as a rather smooth-sailing one as compared to many others. I don’t mug like there is no tomorrow on a regular basis and I’m still able to get a decent enough score that allows me to have quite a wide variety of choices to choose from. I must really thank my lucky stars for looking over me all these while. When I did my Prelims in P6, I did so horribly that I thought I’ld most likely end up in the Normal Academic stream. But when my PSLE results was released, I managed to get an above average score that landed me in STC. Although it was a pity that I was a few point short for CGS/SMS, I think it’s fate for me to enter STC too. If not for that, I wouldn’t have made the friends that I have now and enjoying their company. And the same thing repeated itself last year as well. I scored an atrocious score of 16 and 23 for my R4 and R5 scores respectively. With those scores, I cant even get myself into a decent course in Poly, what more a JC? But I guess Lady Luck was on my side this time round as well. Although I am contented with what I’ve gotten, I’ve told myself that I can’t simply continue with my old ways. For it will only spell repetition for future events. What if I run out of luck one day? I can only blame myself then for not waking up in time to salvage the situation.

27 January 2010 must be one of the happiest day I’d ever had in my life. Although it came rather late at 7.47am, it still came. An sms that said:

MOE: CHUA WAN ZHEN, you are posted to NGEE ANN POLY, CHINESE MEDIA & COMMUNICATION (N88) under 2010 JAE

That was what I was longing to receive ever since the day I set my eyes on this goal. I’ve never wanted something this badly before, never was so sure of what I wanted before. And now that I’ve gotten in, the feeling that comes with it is indescribable. Maybe that is what true happiness feels like, something that feels so amazing but yet there is no one word that you can use to describe it perfectly.

I went to the extend of researching about my career prospects, about the degrees that I would be able to pursue in Uni, entry requirements if I were to go to an overseas Uni, the cost of studying in an overseas Uni….and the list just goes on and on and on. Not to forget how many times I’ve went to the NP webpage for the course information, reading its contents like it was the most intriguing piece of information I’ve ever encountered in my life. I guess this is what passion is all about.

For this new beginning that I’m about to embark on in another 2 month’s time, I will give it my best and face all upcoming obstacles with the right attitude. This is a promise that I’m making to myself and I will make sure that it comes true.

1st post of 2010! :D

For the 1st post of 2010, this is rather late isn’t it? Despite so, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE still!!! I haven’t been doing anything interesting lately. Its like a vicious cycle of some sort. Everything seems repetitive and dull. Maybe its cause the holidays are really long this time round. New Year’s Day in Singapore seems really unexciting though, I don’t even feel the festive mood of a new year arriving. D: I really want to celebrate New Year’s in Taiwan!!! Someday, I will! They have huge concerts at different parts of the country and the artises that performs are really the kind that people anticipate to watch. I WANTED TO GO FOR THE TAIPEI 101 COUNTDOWN! ): There’s Fei & S.H.E. Maybe next year? Hehehhe, 2010 is only into its 6th day and I’m planning what I want to do on the last day. LOL.

1/1/2010 – A really ordinary day for me. I only went to do volunteer work at KMSPKS and thencaught Bodyguards & Assassins at night. The show may not be as good as Avatar or Sherlock Holmes, but it was unique in its own way I guess. You know how Chinese movies are always revolving around the ‘情’. But I cried cause of the trigger line, !*^@*%&!*, why create such lines, trigger people to cry only… “阿四，你跟我说过，你每天晚上闭上眼，梦到的都是阿纯姑娘的样子；我闭上眼，看到的是中国的明天。”

You’ll have to go watch the movie to get what’s so saddening about this line. But actually, if you’re smart, you should be able to understand just by reading the sentence above. ):  我闭上眼，看到的是中国的明天。ARGH, 怎么编剧那么会完文字游戏啊。。。

Alright, lets move on. Had chalet on the 2nd/3rd. Nothing much, pretty much ordinary. But the important thing is that we made an effort to meet up and had some time together right? So yeah, that was about it. Singing lesson was quite a killer though, the whole pitch thing was so difficult. Gotta do the diaphragm practice….

3rd day of work ytd. It was quite smooth I should say. Maybe its cause I pick up things fast too. HAHHA, self-complimenting at the moment. Nothing really special at all. Going for NP’s Open House tmr! CMC! CMC! CMC! HAHAA, its like a repeated chant in my brain alr.

11/01/2010 – I’m praying like anything…

Spamming this post with my hottest 19yo boy. :D

 

I’m satisfied!

Work

God, I have no idea why I woke up at 8.30am when I told myself I will only rise from bed at noon. I’m not exactly tired actually, so I’ll just be wasting my time if I continue rolling in bed.

Now to the main point of the post, work. It was my first day at work yesterday. I wouldnt describe it as fun and neither is it really horrible. I guess I’m lucky in a way that the people there are really patient and they tell you specifically what they want. Well, maybe not everyone there is patient, but by far the people which I met are rather willing to share their expertise.

In fact, the toughest thing about work isn’t the work itself, its explaining to my Dad why I reached home at an unearthly hour. He practically yelled into my ears when I picked up his phone call. And he began throwing tantrams like why must there be an hour interval in between the buses and even suggest that I took a cab back. Which was really ‘great’ advice. I mean, I’m not trying to be a miser here, if I wanted to cab back, I can. But what’s the point of working if you cabbed home? Its like almost half of your hours gone into the drain. And not to forget the midnight surcharge of 50%.

I’m pretty sure they’ll get used to it anyway.

!!! I’m reviving my WRETCH blog (Yes, the one in Chinese) !!! But I have no idea why everytime I re-read my posts there, it feels like I’m writing some Chinese essay. Not the length, but the word choice…

The Season of Giving.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Time passes at a snail’s pace now. I can barely think of what to do to fill my time. And no, no chanting sessions for me. My parents went for this Mani Retreat that starts today and lasts for 3 days. My Mum even bought a spare ticket in case I changed my mind and decided to go for it, which I think is rather redundant cause its like an over my dead body situation whereby I’ll go. Plus I told my Mum straight that I went for the camp so I’ll have a valid reason for not going for the Mantra Chanting. If not she’ll attack me and say that I’m not involved in religious stuffs on a regular basis so I dont see the goodness of it. But the point is I never intended to be involved! D: I receive email after emails from my Mum about all the dharma talks, youth activity, praying session etc. etc. She was never this efficient when I asked her for help in Chem. 

The schedule is a killer, and I mean it.

8.00am – Admission

8.30am – Chant

10.30am – Break

11.00am – Chant again

12.30pm – Lunch

1.30pm – Chant again?

3.30pm – Break

4.00pm – You’re kidding me right? STILL CHANTING !?!?!

6.00pm – Dinner

7.00pm – K, I know the cycle. Time to chant right?

9.30pm – Dedication of Merits.

I don’t want chanting, I WANT CHANSUNG….

I love Taiwan. (:

Trip to Taiwan was obviously great to me since I’ve been wanting to go there ever since a long long time ago. But we spent too little time in Taipei, which is rather dissapointing. Its alright, I believe there will be more chances for me to go there anyway. Being a Taiwan-bias, how can I not love the country? Its true that they’re politically corrupted and constantly experiencing natural disasters, but I still wanna stay there. Not for my entire life, but at least for a few years? Then I can go around touring the country. I love the milk tea there! Its the authentic kind whereby you can taste both the milk and the tea. Singapore’s one is like 10% tea and 90% milk? And their ‘pearls’ are the really chewy kinds unlike the sticky ones you normally get from Sweetalk. And you dont even have to go to the best milk tea store to get nice milk tea, almost every milk tea store’s ones are up to standards. Food there is awesome too, Oyster Omelette, XXL Chicken, Oyster Meesua, Smelly Tofu, Braised Meat Rice~~! I’m feeling hungry now. Plus shopping there is like so much more worth it than in Sg. Its not just the roadside stalls you see in the night markets that sells nice clothes for a cheaper price, even branded goods are cheaper than if you get them from Sg. What to do, high-standard of living in Singapore.

HAHHA. I saw famous people! Not 1, but 3 of them. They took the same plane from Hong Kong to Taiwan. HAHHAA. Not really our cup of tea but you still cant deny the fact that they are famous and alot of aunties are madly in love with them. Hehehe, I saw CAO MENG, THE GRASSHOPPERS. HAAHA, they look awfully young for their age, must be the investment on Botox is taking its effects.

My idol dramas are loading really fast today. YIPPY!!!

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A week has passed.

Why is Singapore such a puny country? I dont even feel satisfied even though I literally played and had fun for one whole week. Well, Red Camp was awesome though, the SLs were all really nice and the cheers are still ringing in my head now. And I am  in a yellow shirt right now as I’m typing this post. Didnt get much opportunities to mingle around though, but so long as everyone had fun, there is nothing much to complain about right? The food was way better than any camp food I had eaten. Maybe not…the New Zealand one is still the best!!! :D Yum, I’m drooling alr, cant believe its been a year since we went to NZ. I MISS NZ!!!! I wna abseil down the enormous waterfall and play in the snow agn with everyone!

GRAD DAY/PROM!!! Finally, we are done with our secondary school life! No more gathering in the hardcourt and refusing to stand when its time for assembly, no more EFLs together, no more complaining about how dry EL lessons are, no more decked in our IJ Blue, no more singing the IJ song together…etc. There’s rly too many things that we do tgt that we will no longer do anymore. ): I will miss everyone though. Was alr only the brink of tears on Grad Day but being me, I’ll never cry in public. NEVER! IJ friends are friends for life, so we better still keep in contact okay!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!

Tsk, this post is getting all emotional, shall post a photo to neutralise it. HAHAHA.

Chansung  is loved!!!

& before I forget,

I’M A CENTURION!

 

Hope he’s watching

Lastly Jaebum, Junsu, Taecyeon, Khun, Wooyoung, Junho, Chansung our 7 let’s do this together even if we fall temporarily think of it as we’re are doing it as one. Although we are as a 6, I am waiting until we become a 7. Don’t give up J. -Chansung-

In the end our 2PM members… We have lost the most biggest part of our lives. Jay.. Wherever Jay is, without you I know we wouldn’t have got this far, we are always hoping you are well. Also we always miss you. One day I hope we look back at this and laugh together, I will make sure you will be proud of us. -Khun-

Their comeback on Music Bank was awesome, bet Jay would be really proud of them if he saw the performance.

LISTEN TO OUR HEARTBEAT, ITS BEATING FOR YOU.

LISTEN TO OUR HEARTBEAT, ITS WAITING FOR YOU.

O’s is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!! Gonna play till news of release of results comes out. Whoooohooooooo. But, I still am praying hard that I get into CMC.

Listen to their ♥beat

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAL! And you’re 29 alr… a decade older than CS, but I still love you. (: HAHHA.